Friday, April 30, 2010

What an absolutely beautiful day!

I didn't have to get up before dawn, I'm on the patio soaking up the sun with a cup of java...life is good.

Last night was not so good. I was so hungry it was painful, but I know why. I had to stay up late to finish a 4 page take-home essay quiz, and I didn't 'secure my environment'. My daughter came home from school and started baking yummy smelling stuff and then eating it just few feet away. I thought I could handle it, but my stomach was growling so loud it would have been comical if it weren't so painful. I wanted what she was having. I wanted a glass of wine. I wanted cookies, or chocolate. I had a handful of macadamia nuts and I'm only down .7 lb. today. I know it would have been more without the nuts, but I also know had I started in on any of the things I actually wanted (all of which were in the house) I likely wouldn't have stopped and I'd be UP 3 lb. today. I just could not give myself permission to do that. There was nothing I could say to myself to make that ok.

So where that leaves me today is back in the ten-point-something range of my goal weight. I'm still not down to the lowest I had been last time, but within my comfort range. I'm confident I can reach my goal in the 3-4 weeks I have left in this round. The only variable I'm concerned about is that today I'll be in the basement (that just kills me since it BEAUTIFUL today) with plaster and paint, up and down stairs and ladders about a billion times. I don't know how that will play out on 500 calories. I know I can stick to the program without issue because I'll be covered in paint, thus only eating when I'm not. Tomorrow, with my classes, I'll only be able to eat before and after, so again, no problem with sticking to it. I tend to not even be hungry when I'm teaching just because I'm doing my favorite thing...talking about birth!

So, it will be interesting the next couple of days.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Zero days get me down

I wasn't on yesterday because I had one of those zero days...and because I was crazy busy.
A zero so early in the program was not something I wanted to see, but whataugonnado?

Today, down 1.5 lb. That's better.

Last night was a beautiful night, and I finished another class. I really wanted a glass of wine. Last time I think I complained about that every night. This time, not so much.

Dave thinks because I was exercising so much before this that my results would be more impressive, and he's right I'm sure. I haven't had time! I'm squeezing a full term class into two weeks! (Or I was.) Fortunately, work is just busy enough that it wasn't driving me over the edge, but I will say the state of the basement is causing me anxiety.

I'm very happy that it's getting done much quicker than we intended. I know there is a reason for everything, and things feel into place for reasons we just cannot currently see. But I hate that currently it's a mess and it will be until the carpet is in, which could be a couple of weeks, AND somehow now I have to find time to blend in the plaster texture, prime it and match the paint to the previous work...all within the next two weeks, and all while I start two new classes and work. I'd be putting my guest to work, except it's not anything that even Dave can do...I did the original work. I'm the only one that's going to get it the same.

Oh well...it all works out the way it's supposed to. Sorry about the dust and fumes, sis (the house guest that may get put to work). ;-)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Briefly...

Down .9 lb. today, which is nothing to complain about, but it it still will take me all week to get down to the absolute lowest I was before at this rate.

The good thing is that it is happening like it is supposed to, and I feel like it's coming off differently. I can't explain it except that I feel smaller than I did at this weight before. One of my favorite skirts...which never was too big even at my lowest...is loose today.

Last night I didn't get to eat my veggie. I had my fruit and melba before my presentation, didn't get home until 8:30, but knew I had to at least have my protein. I did, but didn't really want it. I wasn't hungry at all. And I didn't want to eat that late. I'll try to do better today.

I hope the very least this blog shows that there is no perfection in living life on protocol. It's a precise program. It's unforgiving in a lot of respects, but we do the best we can as we fit it into our lives.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Well that was depressing

Even though I feel like I am close to my smallest weight throughout this process, my Wii says I've lost 1.1 lb. in the 8 days since I've last weighed, with not quite a week of protocol under my belt.

Now, rationally, I can look at this and say I was up almost 5 lb. over that two month (plus) period when I struggled to stabilize. At some point after the 6 week mark I gave up trying. But I know that last weigh in scared me enough to risk jumping back in now (and spending a lot of money to do it) instead of waiting until August. Being able to feel that it was more difficult to go up the stairs and not fitting into clothes in a way that felt right panicked me a little

So the weekend before my birthday, I didn't weigh. That weekend we partied, eating and drinking indiscriminately, then I loaded. Knowing that I likely released around 10 lb. this week, that would mean between those two things I must have gained 10 lb. Well, maybe not quite because I did that adjustment of 2 lb. on the scale as well by choosing the +/-0 option instead of the +/-2 lb. option.

Anyway, it was depressing, no matter what my logical mind says.

So today, I have appointments all morning, and I have a presentation about the program tonight. I'm all set for that except for set up after the wellness center closes, so I think I'm going to hit the infrared sauna. In fact, I'm going to see where I can fit that in several times per week to maximize this effort. Between that, the B12 MIC and the Mesotherapy, I should be able to do better than ever before. By the end of this week, I should be below where I was last time, and on my way to my goal.

There has been no 'cheating'. Actually ever, in the year-plus-I've been off and on this-depending on how you define cheating. I have 'tweaked' in times of actual hunger, with items that are not strictly protocol, but are necessary to assuage a real need with blood sugar, substituting what I may crave with something less damaging. Like protocol chocolate for real chocolate with sugar, or 8-12 macs when I know there is no way I'll make it through a day without passing out because my work load, waking ours or stress level requires a few more calories.

For dinner, lettuce, chicken, grissini, grapefruit, in approved sized. For lunch, cabbage, chicken, grissini, grapefruit. Water, water, water, water all day. Regular coffee in the a.m., decaf in the p.m., with just stevia. Feeling good and sleeping well (except for last night...what is it about Sundays?). Hungry on occasion, but usually just before meals or at the end of really long days, and even then, not a gnawing hunger. Just annoying.

Later-

It's very weird to be in the position of telling people I'm doing another round and then have to justify it because they insist I shouldn't be doing that.

According to my BMI, I am overweight. Granted, I am much smaller than I was. But I am very short, and while I look and feel good, I have not reached my goal, and the strangeness of that last round made me hesitant to just try to get their the usual way. I don't know that I am close enough for my body to pick up the pace and hook into a pound a week release. It wasn't looking that way.

Anyway, I couldn't believe that I felt sort of defensive...like I had to explain to some stranger why I was trying to get smaller. That has never, ever happened that I remember.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Men in my basement

I can't weigh to day as I planned as there are men in my basement putting up drywall. It's likely we will go look for some doors and carpet today and get this all done (except for trim) so we can put stuff back where it belongs (or rather find all the stuff that's been misplaced for a year!) at which time I can weigh. Well, I guess if I set the Wii up upstairs for the time being I can too, but not with strange men in the house, so maybe tomorrow.

Anyway, tomorrow I'll have a week under my belt, so I better be close to where I started or below! Frankly, I'm starting to feel 'normal sized' again, so I think I am. The daily weigh is usually so motivating...it's been weird going all week without it as part of my routine. However, as I said in my last post, the hunger has not been horrible, just present sometimes. I've actually felt the need to employ willpower!

I'm not sick of the foods yet. I do miss my wine, but I always do. It hasn't been awful or anything. I will say my replacement night beverage (deaf) has some drawbacks. First of all, I've just had about enough. Almost enough so that I'm willing to branch out into tea and experiments with water and stevia. Perhaps I'll make some homemade lemonade or something. Second, if I drink decaf too late at night, I'm up more than usual to pee. Frankly, I enjoy my sleep when I get the good stuff, and I don't much care for interruption!

So, anyway, I likely won't eat until after my hypnosis appointment, then I'll grab a bite and go pick out carpet and doors for the basement. The doors may be in today! Hopefully the carpet by the end of the week. The ceiling should be painted by then, so then I'll need to do some touch-up with the walls. I am very excited!

Oh, and I also have a 9-page paper to write and a presentation to prepare for, books to order for my upcoming classes and I still need to get to the HypnoBirthing(R) reports.

I guess I should stop messing around and get to work. It's going to be a busy day!

Friday, April 23, 2010



So, this is a picture of my 44th birthday.

While I had gotten down to 132 at one point (and including the 2 lb. I gained from my 210 starting point, that makes 80 lb.) here I may be up around 138-140. I had gained a couple of lb. after I gave up on that wonky stabilization period, but was staying active so it wasn't too bad. Then I had a couple of busy weeks where I didn't get out as much as I wanted,didn't weigh, and then we had a bday party where I ate and drank what I wanted with full knowledge of the consequences. At this point, I know what makes me gain, and I take responsibility for making those decisions.

This was right before we went to Cheesecake Factory on my first actual 'loading' day.

Currently, I am on my 3rd Very Low Calorie Intake (VLCI) day, and I am still 'unloading' from my 'loading' days.

Last night we went for a 2.25 mile walk. My jeans fit snug and I didn't like it at all. When we came back, I had lettuce, chicken, strawberries and a melba. I was in bed by 10-ish.

Up this am at 7 am or so, I've had coffee with stevia and a small apple.

I'm not hungry like last time, but I do find I need to keep pounding the water and coffee to keep hunger at bay. Even so, it's not the feeling of complete starvation I felt last time. If I were weighing, the large releases would likely keep my at least psychologically satisfied. But I'm not going to weigh until my clothes feel right again, because I don't want to be depressed. Not knowing how much I was up before I started means I need to create a new set point here.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Industrialization and the Rise in Obesity

Copyright Kim Wildner, 2010

May not be used, reprinted or distributed without written permission.

Industrialization and the Rise in Obesity

Obesity, diabetes, heart disease, cancer…these are the leading causes of death in humans in the 21st century. We live longer than ever before in history, but the question is do we live better? Some would argue, as does Davis in The human story: Our History from the Stone Age to Today that due to industrialization, indeed we do live better. Davis claims, “We live longer and are healthier and probably happier than those who went before us.” (Davis, pp. 247) Others, including myself, contend that while industrialization of our food supply does make our lives easier, it has also made us sicker, thus compromising our quality of life, often making the time gained through a longer lifespan more difficult and eminently more expensive through higher medical costs. Both views hold some truth, but if we are to maximize both quality of life and life expectancy, we need to look to history objectively, sorting out the wheat from the chaff, so to speak.

Archeology shows us that our ancestors lived difficult lives fraught with danger. In an ‘eat or be eaten’ world, accident or injury was likely. Without knowledge of how to treat infection and without blood replacement capability, death was the likely outcome. Without an understanding of the etiology of disease, and little control over consistency and quality of nutritional content, pathogens also likely had free reign. The absence of things that modern humans take for granted, for instance dental health or adequate shelter, could be fatal for earlier humans. As populations grew sanitation became more important. Little understood pestilence emerged as a significant factor in mortality with the bubonic plague. Life has a 100% mortality rate, but there are historically a multitude of reasons why we often died young.
Eventually we learned to keep animals and save seeds for subsequent planting so that we might harvest a dependable crop…or at least more dependable, more often. The importance of clean water became apparent. Antibiotics were discovered. All of these factors and more would have contributed to a longer lifespan. With our food supply more predictable and our exercise requirements met by the expenditure required to produce said food, our health improved.

The move to an agrarian existence introduced more grains into our diet and because they stored well they would have allowed us to survive in lean times. Yet all the while, a ‘bigger, better, faster’ mindset was driving us toward industrialization where grains would supplant more nutritious foods.

Today, the obesity epidemic has forced us to focus on getting people active and reducing consumption as a solution to the problem. But this is in diametric opposition to industrialization which tries to produce more with less. The grains that would have saved lives in an earlier time may now have become a danger to our health. (Brasco, J., n.d.)

Because industrialization has been so successful in the endeavor to grow more food more cheaply, and we have the capability to store as well as transport goods quickly, we now eat more of foods that our bodies simply do not process well. Everywhere we turn the message is that the obesity problem is a simple matter of calories in/calories out, often with little said about what we eat, other than an admonishment to not eat ‘junk.’ Currently, there is an emphasis on getting kids to eat healthier and become more active. Unfortunately, this advice is not only too little too late, it doesn’t address the very root of the problem: the industrialization of our food has compromised nutrition from before those children are even born. If we trace the biggest health concerns of our day back to their origin, we invariably come back to industrialization in a number of ways.

Beginning at the beginning, maternal nutrition during pregnancy sets the stage for baby’s eventual adult health. A mother who eats a highly processed diet may well predispose her baby to diabetes and obesity. (Martin-Gronert, M., Ozanne, S. (2006).
Following this, we have inferior industrialized infant nutrition. Mammals are meant to consume milk from their own species. Human babies thrive on human milk. Adequate substitutes for mother’s milk were an important invention, no doubt allowing orphaned infants to survive in the absence of another lactating mother to provide the services of a wet nurse. However, industrialization of infant formula allowed widespread use so that formula replaced mother’s milk. Only 43% of babies are breastfeeding at 6 months (CDC, 2010) and only 23% at one year, even though the World Health Organization advises all infants be breastfed for two years and the American Academy of Pediatrics advising exclusively breastfeeding for 6 months, then at least one year or “as mutually desired”. (Merrill, K., 2001)

The result of substituting a perfect food with nutritional content specific to the child for which it was made (including antibodies protective against pathogens in that infant’s environment) with an inferior imposter is that children are sicker. Up to 900 U.S. children each year die from formula (Tanner, 2010)…not because of contamination (which happens) nor lack of access to clean water, as untold numbers of babies do in underdeveloped countries throughout the world. They die from illnesses that are a direct result of the contents of artificial milks.
For instance, the American Academy of Pediatrics advises against the use of cow’s milk until babies are older than one year of age. Not only is cow’s milk inadequate to a baby’s needs, it is made by a mother cow for a baby cow…born with 4 stomachs, weighing roughly 100 lb. at birth. Cow’s milk is actually the NUMBER ONE allergen in children, (More, 2007) and yet it is used in the top selling formulas.
Soy is used as an alternative to cow’s milk, even though a study at Cornell University, found

“…children who were fed soy-based formula had nearly three times the risk of developing autoimmune thyroid disease or other thyroid problems than their own siblings or other children not fed soy-based formula. Some experts believe that long-term exposure of soy formulas in infancy that lead to elevated TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) levels will increase the risk of thyroid cancer in adulthood.”
“Research has also indicated that children who are fed soy-based formulas in infancy will be more likely to develop an allergy to soy products later in adulthood. There is also evidence that the consumption of soy-based formula is linked to early onset of puberty and possible links to infantile leukemia.” (Lane, 2008)


What else is in infant formula? Besides factory-made vitamins and minerals, corn syrup and sugar are usually listed right after the main ingredient of water. (Truth in Labeling Campaign, 2004) This is just stuff to make it taste good, right? Can companies be faulted with trying to make a product that tastes good? I would have to say if it causes harm to babies, yes.

Then there are the unintended ingredients specific to industrial production practices, such as melamine, a contaminant that sickened thousands of babies in China, killing three. In the production of formula, melamine contamination is almost unavoidable because the machines that produce the formula are cleaned with it. Thus The FDA allows trace amounts because, "We think it's safe," Dr. Rauch says. "But the bottom line is that we don't really know, and zero would be best." (CBS News, 2008)
We THINK it’s safe? These are our babies!

From manufactured formula, most children in the U.S. move on to manufactured ‘baby food’, as if babies need an entirely different category of food. Before industrialization, parents just mashed up or chopped up the food they themselves were eating and shared with their babies. Now it comes pre-mashed and pre-chopped, but at a price, literally. A bag of frozen vegetables might cost $3.99 or less per 1 lb. bag. One jar of ‘baby food’ costs about $1.62, or about twice as much at 50 cents per ounce. The price difference doesn’t even consider the nutritional difference in the products. The pureed products have added fillers, salt and sugars. Looking at labels reveals that often it is wheat, soy and corn products that are used for these purposes. Again, these are in the list of top ten allergens. Also, occasionally we encounter contaminants due to the industrialization process, but it is the intentional ingredients and inferior quality of the product that are a bigger concern. Might it be that the reason so many people are allergic to soy, wheat and corn is that humans were not designed to consume them in any significant amount?
By the time children are going off to school, we are seeing the effects of industrialized junk food on their little bodies, but the error is to focus only on the foods they are consuming at that point. This may be the point at which we recognize the manifestation of obesity and what is called type 2 diabetes (instead of ‘adult onset diabetes, because we now see it in younger and younger children), but by this time advising parents to feed their children more wholesome foods and get them moving ignores that damage has already been done. Not that it’s ever too late to mitigate the damage, but prevention is obviously preferable.

The impetus behind the industrial revolution…cheaper, faster production…is a fine goal, providing the product is also better. ‘Better’ might be seen as a subjective term, but when it comes to our food, if the final product is nutritionally inferior to that which we are designed to consume, or actually damaging to our bodies, one would be hard pressed to find a way to justify using the term ‘better’ as a descriptor. As Joel Salatin comments in Food, Inc. (2008), “Everything we’ve done in modern industrial agriculture is to make it faster, fatter, bigger, cheaper. Nobody’s thinking about e-coli and type II diabetes and the ecological health of the whole system.” The emphasis is on the ‘cheaper’ and the ‘faster’ part. Again, according to Food, Inc., we end up with what, “…looks like a tomato [but] is actually a kind of ‘notional’ tomato…the idea of a tomato.”

Without integrity, transparency and accountability in our food processing, we end up with ‘food’ that looks like real food, but doesn’t act like real food. This is leading us into an epidemic of ‘metabolic syndrome’, which is the term that encompasses those leading causes of death mentioned earlier. With only a handful of corporations providing us with our food, there exists a David and Goliath situation that seems hopeless. However, there is much we can do.

On a personal level, I know that a program developed by Dr. A.T.W. Simeons in the 1950s can allay the symptoms of metabolic syndrome and restore balance to the body. Using this protocol, I dropped 80 lb. that had refused to budge for 20 years.
Once excess weight is gone and toxins are cleared from the system, the body seeks homeostasis, or balance. By supporting the body with that which is in line with our genetic predisposition, we can reclaim our health. To do this, we need to rethink everything we know that isn’t so about food.

We need to go back to the beginning once again, but this time way, way back. We go back to those ancestors that died young due to accident or illness…but not due to obesity. Mark Sisson provides a fictional biography for this ancestor in his book, The Primal Blueprint. His name is Grok. He is a hunter/gatherer. His physiology is designed for survival or we, his descendants, wouldn’t be here. He eats nuts, seeds, fruits, vegetables, roots when he can find them and meat when he can get it. He’s physically active, but he mostly walks, with some climbing, hauling and an occasional sprint if he’s being chased or is doing some chasing.

Sisson contends that it is the insulin response to our industrialized food, particularly the dominance of grains that, leads to our health issues. It’s not likely that anything that would elicit a heavy insulin response would be part of Grok’s life because of the energy investment that would be required to procure them, and then produce something edible from them…an investment all but eliminated with industrialization.

So, we move ahead a few thousand years from Grok’s time…to the industrial revolution. We move right past the advent of farming because it must be stated that becoming an agrarian society did not result in our current health crisis. As we learned to cultivate grains, there was still a lot of effort to grow and use them. Grains were easier to preserve than fresh foods and more consistent than wild game as a source of sustenance during the winter months, for instance. Keeping and breeding animals allowed for more stability for our protein sources, including eggs, milk products and meat. These factors began to help us become healthier, bigger, and more likely to survive. (Dougherty, 1998)

It wasn’t until industrialization, including widespread distribution capability, the scales started to tip (once again in a literal sense). Commodity crops…those that stored well and shipped easily like corn…became the foundation of the U.S. economy. Now, because of large multinational corporate interests, farmers are paid to over-produce corn. As stated in Food, Inc., most processed food consists of, “clever rearrangements of corn” because, “We produced a lot of corn, and they came up with uses for it.” The same situation exists with soy.

One problem with that is that a handful of companies own almost all of the corn and soy, and they are quietly replacing virtually all natural varieties with genetically modified versions. At this point in history, we have no idea what the long-term ramifications of that might be.

Thus, many doctors, Dr. Mercola (www.mercola.com) advise people to avoid ‘white’ (i.e. processed) foods like flour and sugar if they want to lose weight. Sisson goes a step further and puts forth a pretty good argument that even whole grains are not appropriate for our ‘primal blueprint’. In essence, he says that our food pyramid is based not on biology, but politics and wrong thinking and should be turned upside down. With the convergence of many works now exposing the dangers of the industrialization of our food, his work actually dovetails quite nicely.

While researching this work, I was asked if the industrialization of our food was a good thing, or a bad thing. I responded just as I have here: that it has led to horrible health consequences. At that time, it was argued that to say so ignored personal responsibility, but it absolutely does not. Yes, people can choose to eat unhealthy food. We are hardwired to desire fatty and sweet foods for our survival (Halliday, 2008) and the food industry is well aware of that. Are people really making informed decisions? Or are they manipulated by the industries that profit from keeping them ignorant? I would suggest the intentional use of our own biology against us for the profit requires accountability of those profiting.

We have seen that human beings can take a good idea and remove all common sense from the application of said idea. The discovery of antibiotics was good…over-use of antibiotics has led to the deadly consequence of antibiotic resistant bacteria like MRSA. The invention of the computer was good…the fact that computers can be used as a tool for malice is human nature. Yet we do not ignore that these are consequences of these abuses of technological advances. We do not just allow the abuses to become the norm. We educate people and we regulate the industries to the best of our ability. To say that the industries that create toxins that destroy our bodies have no culpability because they are just making products that people want is an argument that didn’t work for the tobacco industry, and it shouldn’t work for the food industry. The food industry uses very deceptive practices to hide what they don’t want us to know, although documentaries like The Future of Food are reaching people with the facts, thanks to the ubiquitous nature of the internet.

Making a profit is why businesspersons go into business, but should it be the bottom line when an epidemic of health consequences…obesity, diabetes and heart disease…are the result? Should they be allowed to make a dangerous product, not label it as such, and sell it to children through aggressive marketing so that by the time they possess the critical thinking skills (perhaps) to make a different decision, they are incapable of physically doing so because their bodies are already broken?
This is where I believe that industrial food production branches off from other industrialize manufacturing. Profit must not trump the health of our children…our future. If we are going to make it faster and cheaper, we must also demand it be made better.




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New (and LAST) round!

I know, I know...the last one was supposed to be the last one. But it was all messed up. I was going to wait until like July or August to re-do it, but because it was so weird, the stabilization was weird too, and I decided not to wait.

Actually, to say I decided isn't actually accurate. Before, calculations for many things went into when I'd start: how the round would fit into my cycle, what events might be coming up, how long ago the last round was. This time, I thought, 'It would make my SILs round easier during her visit if I were on protocol too' and that was about as far as planning went. I was able to get my blood draw that day and a physical scheduled right away, so I did. I didn't know if I'd be able to fit it into the budget (yes, I am paying for my own program, minus the cost of the support materials I created and my own mentoring)or anything, I just jumped. It felt right.

So, I started loading on Monday. I had a piece of garlic toast for breakfast and took and apple to work. There is obviously no fat in the apple, and loading is about loading up on fat, but it was fast and I had nothing in the house that was really 'load worthy'.

I never did have an opportunity to eat the apple anyway, so it was a moot point.

I got out of work around 1 pm and was starving, so I stopped and picked up a Big Mac meal with a chocolate shake. After not having this in forever, I must say, there are odd tastes in these foods I have never noticed before. Anyway, I tossed some of the shake, but I ate the rest. I felt like I might die for hours afterward. In fact, I took a nap.

It was my birthday, so we had plans to go to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner, and we did, but I felt like a cow already. I ordered a pasta dish with a garlic cream sauce. I ate about 1/3 of it, and 1/2 a piece of carrot cake/cheesecake, had a glass of wine and some bread...again, having never fully recovered from 'lunch' that was the best I could do.

The next day, I had 3 pieces of bacon for breakfast, later the 2/3 of the pasta left over from dinner the night before, and the rest of the cheesecake. I had 3 pieces of Little Caesar's pepperoni pizza for dinner, and 3 pieces of Crazy bread over the course of the rest of the evening.

I had to stop loading with that. I felt so bloated and uncomfortable. I had gained a couple of pounds over stabilization, I had already eaten poorly and drank to much over my birthday weekend as we had people over, and the loading was just too much. I still fit into my clothes, but they felt different and I didn't like it.

I did not weigh myself. I was afraid to do so.

Yesterday, I started my Very Low Calorie Intake (VLCI) and had an apple in the morning, with lettuce, 100g chicken and 1 melba for lunch. For dinner, I had steamed cabbage, 100g chicken, 5 strawberries and a melba. I drank coffee with just stevia in the morning, and decaf with the same in the afternoon.

I wasn't all that hungry until the end of the day when I was closing in on an 18 hour day. It was late, I was tired, and yes, I was hungry. I knew I couldn't eat though, not only because I'd consumed my 500 calories already, but because even if I hadn't I wouldn't eat that late. It always shows up the next morning if I eat after about 7 pm.

I slept like a rock except for the stupid f*cking cat yowling and waking me up because her person (my kid) was ignoring her insistent bid for attention.

It is now about 7:40 am. I am having coffee. I'll eat right before I go to work as I have a few afternoon appointments. Until then, I'll be getting some school work done and some reports filed for HypnoBirthing(R)...at least that's the plan.

My SIL will be visiting in about 2 weeks, and in that time I should be (if the planets align and this all goes as planned) below the lowest weight I had been at yet throughout this whole year. I don't know that I will do a full round. It depends on how well it goes. Even with the weight I fear I gained, I wouldn't need to lose more than 20 lb., which should come off in less than 43 days.

I will weigh probably on Sunday, my 'skip day', when I will continue to eat the same 500 VLCI options, but will not take the hCG. By then I should be close to where I left off, accounting for the adjustment I will make on the scale: I've been weighing with the '+/- 2 lb.' option on Wii because when I started this over a year ago, my Wii was in my living room and I weighed in my jammies. It is now in the basement, and I weigh nekkid or with just undies, so I should be using the '+/- 0' option, but just hadn't changed it. That likewise is going to add about 2 lb., so I'm not going to do it while I'm at a higher weight.

Ultimately, I'm only going to count my release from my highest point (210), so it doesn't really matter, though I won't have an accurate number for this round. But I didn't have an accurate number to start it with anyway since I'd been lax on the whole scale thing for a couple of weeks. What I'll do here is just go with the last # the Wii recorded.

So, I'm off. I have tons to do and little time to do it.

Monday, April 12, 2010

My Wii is going to scold me!

I don't think I got on the darn thing all weekend except to play a bit on Sat. when we had company!

However, I did get a 3 mile walk in Friday night and a 9 mile bike ride in on Sunday. I'm planning to ride to work today too, so another 9 miles round trip.

Saturday and Sunday both dinner was primarily organic and whole foods with no grains. I did have wine, which I'm sure was not organic, though I understand Frey is organic, so I'm going to scope out what is available next time I'm purchasing.

I also had sugar from two sources: one was the Jiff I used in my spicy peanut sauce (also the part that was not organic), the other was the honey in some honey-sesame candies I ate. That was natural and organic, but still sugar as far as the insulin response.

I did not finish my research paper. I now have at least (conservative estimate) 16 hours into it...6 hours of writing, citing and rewriting plus 10 hours of research, which includes seeking out and reading books, watching documentaries (with note taking) and Internet (looking for the science to back up my assertions). When it's done, it will have to be split into a 3 or 4 part series for publication in a magazine...it's just so long. I do plan to submit it thought, because the stuff I'm finding is just so important. Otherwise, it will be here on this blog and on the Fox Valley website (or the Real Weight Release Facebook page).

So, if I'm riding my bike to work, I better get rolling!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Progress

I've been fluctuating in much wider arcs than before, but so far, so good. I'm weighing less often so it doesn't freak me out, confident that I'm doing good things.

I had been more active until this week, when it's been raining and I got ubber busy (er). I'm looking forward to some yoga tonight. I'm working on a research paper that's really taking up a lot of my time. The problem is that there is too much information!

Easter I made a crust-less quiche, roasted garlic green beans with balsamic vinegar and pine nuts followed by roasted pears with almond crunch topping.

Today I had egg salad (no bread) and a piece of farmer's cheese for lunch. I just had an apple and some macs. For dinner I'll have grilled chicken on a bed of organic baby spinach.

We've been buying about 3/4 of our groceries organic. We are moving into grass-fed beef. After watching Food, Inc., we are really making an effort to keep it local and organic (where possible) more than ever before. I look forward to the farmer's market opening!

So really, I've just been trying to keep up with life, but there have been no significant changes in anything. I've now had 3 mesotherapy treatments. I don't see a difference yet, but I understand it can it takes at least 3 to see anything, sometimes 6. The PA seemed to think I could expect 10-12 before I'd be done. We'll see.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

correlation and causation

It’s human nature to look for a cause and effect relationships. The problem is that correlation does not necessarily equal causation, meaning we may assume one thing has to do with another, when in reality there may be no connection at all.

Such is the case particularly when something new and different is in our environment. hCG for weight release is not ‘new,’ but it has gained wide-spread popularity and with the information ‘super highway’ of the internet, it is essentially ‘new’ to a whole population.

The problem with this is that there is a lot of speculation and assumption when people do not do their research, instead assuming that if there is something different in their lives, it must be due to the fact that they’ve started an hCG protocol. Of course, this is true if it means they are shrinking out of their clothes at an astounding pace, but here I speak of a multitude of other things.

For instance, because pregnant women produce hCG, and many pregnant women experience headaches, if a person has a headache after introducing hCG, they assume it is because of the hCG. This is an erroneous assumption, because known causes of headaches in pregnancy are: fluctuating estrogen levels, low blood sugar, poor posture, stress, dehydration, (and conversely a rapidly expanding blood volume), sometimes sinus issues or allergies, fatigue, and caffeine withdrawal.
[http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/headaches-during-pregnancy/AN01870 and http://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregnancyhealth/headaches.html]

Now, allergies and caffeine withdrawal may also be something experienced during the hCG protocol, but it is not because of the hCG protocol…see the difference between correlation and causation? Another cause of headache in the first few days of protocol can be a detoxification response related to sugar and/or artificial sweeteners, which is essentially due to the protocol, but not due to the hCG.

Nausea is another topic that comes up, again because nausea is associated with pregnancy and hCG is present in pregnancy. hCG is implicated in pregnancy nausea because:

“This hormone rises rapidly during early pregnancy. No one knows how hCG contributes to nausea, but it's a prime suspect because the timing is right: Nausea tends to peak around the same time as levels of hCG. What's more, conditions in which women have higher levels of hCG, such as carrying multiples, are associated with higher rates of nausea and vomiting.” [http://www.babycenter.com/0_morning-sickness-causes-concerns-treatments_254.bc]

Please note that it is the amount of hCG that is associated with nausea. In pregnancy, hCG levels in women will peak at anywhere between 300,000 and 500,000 IU per day. Some sources say up to 1,000,000 IU! During protocol, the amount of hCG is usually around 125 IU per day for a limited time. That means about 4000 times more hCG is circulating in a pregnant woman, every time she’s pregnant! Since some women will be sick for one pregnancy, but not others, and approximately the same amount of hCG is being produced, thus it’s very likely that other factors are contributing. If nausea is experienced during Simeons protocol, it is much more probable that it’s due to the flu!

As people research hCG they will come across possible side effects listed for hCG, such as ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome (OHSS). Keep in mind that these are, once again, for much the higher doses used in fertility treatments. Also, some may be tempted to make the leap that if those much higher doses could be implicated in OHSS, it might be possible that other reproductive issues could arise.

Again, if hCG were dangerous, every pregnancy would be high risk, which is simply not the case. The vast majority of pregnancies are uneventful…besides the blessed event of a new human being!

However, estrogen is stored in fat, and as women release fat, they are releasing estrogen. With hCG the fat is released, thus the increase in circulating estrogen is the probable culprit in things like changing cycles. Dr. Simeons observed that even estrogen dependent conditions, like fibroids…”seem to be in no way affected by HCG in the doses we use…” [Pounds and Inches: A New Approach to Obesity, Dr. Simeons]

There is a saying, “When you hear hooves behinds you, expect horses, not zebras.” The hCG protocol takes place over a 12 week period, although hCG is involved in only 6 weeks of that. In any event, in 3 months, a lot can happen. As weight is released, a lot can change, not just in our bodies, but in our self-perception. A pre-existing condition may even make itself known as we become smaller and more aware of our bodies. And isn’t that the best ‘side-effect’ of all if it allows us to address a problem we didn’t know we had?

Just stopping by...

It's been another busy week. I've got a bit of time so I thought I'd check in.

I am mixing up my repertoire a bit. I've added more berries and fruit in combination with nuts, re: The Primal Blueprint. I've also started cooking some 'normal' meals. By this I mean things we like, but somewhat altered to avoid wheat and other processed grains, like quiche and pizza with the cauliflower crust. I've added some sweeter fruits and even continue with an occasional bowl of Irish oats.

I'm getting between 1400 and 1600 calories per day, and if I walk 3 miles or more, that seems to be fine. If not, I fluctuate more. I'm still .8 lb. away from my top amount, but I am not planning to do more steak days. I'd rather get a handle on this myself without resorting to them, and if I can't then I'll do another round and see what happens.

I also think that I'm going to try not to weigh every day. It's become such a habit that it may be hard to stop, but it seems that some pretty wide fluctuations, the ones leading me to do steak days, may be normal. If I just monitor every other day, or every two days, I think I can still stay on top without getting discouraged. The hard part will be stopping! I never would have believed that a year and a half ago.

So that's it. I'm just feeling my way, trying to find a 'new normal'. After the mesotherapy I'll see where I stand.